Restless

Restless in my mind
Always trying to find
Stop looking so hard
Someone will see past your guard

Never Knowing

You think you know someone. Things change. Best friends drift apart. People lie. People cheat. How can you trust anyone but yourself? Your trust is betrayed. Your heart is broken. Your pushed aside. No one notices you. A tear falls. Who will wipe it away? Stand beside me. Clouds drift apart to an open sky. Tearing at my heart. Grounded feet. Stay strong. Trust everyone. Trust no one. Let it go. The past is gone. Furture holds bright. The sun always sets. The moon always rises. Can life be the same? Losing who you are. Gaining a new lesson. Falling apart and away. Building a new me.

In support of the WGA strike

I never really understood the dynamics of the WGA until the recent strike. We all know Corp America is the money maker and most of us are just off to the side working hard for their money. After watching the videos and reading the blogs it dawned on me that I have been contributing to the "online" unfairness. I have watched videos/shows online before never knowing that the actors/writers/producers make nothing from it. Why in the world is this going on? They are the ones creating, acting, brainstorming, writing, editing...so why are the companies benefiting from all of the new media out there and not the people who make all of this happen? To be honest it doesn't surprise me that this is going on but it does just add to the fact that big companies benefit from everyone who works hard. More to follow...

Tempting

Through the window I stare
Thinking to myself how could you dare
Seeming to push yourself away
Maybe it is just me thinking of you as a stray
Reluctant to believe everything will fall into place
So many times before I have been disgraced
Signs of wanting what I believe is my fate
Please don't end up as the usual dead end state
Unsure and scared of where I might be
This is why I have stayed alone and too scared to be set free
Trying to spread my wings off to the sky
As you sit and wait will you let me pass you by
Will you catch my tears as I cry
Sitting alone I wait to see if I can fly
Break me down and come inside

Ignorance

Is ignorance really bliss? How is it that people are immune to what is going on around them? How is it that an adult can go through their daily routine without picking up the paper or watching the news? Only paying attention when something drastic happens. Ignoring the fact that every day soldiers are sacrificing their lives for our freedom. Why do they vote, because mom and dad like a candidate so they automatically do too? Would it kill them to pick up a paper and read up on the next President so they can see what their future could entail? Now a day you can't even hold an intelligent conversation with someone because the only thing that they want to talk about is American Idol or who got kicked off Survivor. Unreal that these are pressing issues in some peoples lives when there is war all around us.

Trapped

Trapped inside your own demise
You live in denial in your own desguise
So concerned about everyone else
You can't even see the disgust in yourself
Always living through someones elses life
Why must you bother yourself with it
Or is it that yours is such a fight
Feeding off of your counterpart
Can't you live one day actually with your heart
Alone and dismayed with what you have become
No one will be there to comfort you when this is all done
No one is perfect and you should know this all too well
Lies and bullshit is who you entail
Don't you know that karma tells all
I can't wait for the day that you are the one to fall
Consumed in the lives of everyone else
You pathetic excuse of knowing yourself
A cancerous cell in everyones lives
Eventually you will be the one to realize

Flooding

Thoughts flooding my mind
As I sit here and unwind
Too long to remember what it was
To have someone here wanting me just because
Blocked by my own wall
I pray that you will pick me up once I fall
Breaking me down to what we should be
Are you really there for me to see
Wanting everything in my dreams
Is it all there just waiting to be seen
Fallen so many times before
As I sit here and face the floor
Please be the one to break down my door