Confusion

Lost in my own confusion
I am starting to fall into a delusion
Of what I thought love could be
I never saw what blinded me
Looking for the right fit
Everything that comes to me doesn’t seem to make it
Searching through the smoky haze
I can’t see what is in front of me
I’ve been lost for days
Finding something wrong with every one of them
I refuse to settle for what I don’t want again
I set my standard high this time
I have to push them aside and find out what is really mine
Confused I wander through the darkness
If I shut my eyes too long it may all be missed
Still in the back of my mind
It is taking much longer this time
This is how it is supposed to feel
Dark and alone I am the only one here
Blurred with thoughts of not knowing what to do
I change my mind everyday thinking it will all be through
So much for me to figure out
This time around there has to be no doubt
I don’t even know if that’s what I want
I’m doing fine without it I almost forgot
The confusion has set in
Eventually I will sort my thoughts
And I will know where to begin
2006